IM NEARLY 12 MONTHS INTO MY JOURNEY!

While I have been helping Tas with the editing of the site ,due to our recent defacings, I have had a chance to re-read my early blogs. Wow was I ever looking at life through rose coloured glasses. It has been alot of hard work and I can't say its all been wonderfull. One thing I can say is that I have grown as aperason and I now know myself better than I ever have. I am secure in my relationship with Shane and I am even secure in his relationship with Helen. I still haven't really gotten to know Helen so I still not to sure of how we work and what our roles are but it will come with time.  I have meet lots of great people through Shane that I hope to have as firm friends for a very long time. I have also learnt to give my iner feelings a voice and this has been my biggest journey.

Is our homelife the wonderfull blending of families I was so sure it was going to be? In all honesty no we have had our ups and downs. I really think  I did rush into moving in and in hindsight it was proberly wrong for the kids. Would I change anything now and move out? NO WAY.

Am I personally the happiest I have ever been? Definately YES

Do we still have alot of work to do? Definetely Yes

Are we committed or should we be committed? That is something I ask myself everyday and yes maybe we are crazy thinking our family will ever be a quiet peacefull life. I think all we can ask of ourselves is that we try and work towards the same goals. Our kids will mean our life is harder than it could be.

Do I want to be with Shane for the rest of my life ? That is the biggest YES OF ALL!!!!!!

So yes our one year anniversery is fast approaching and we haven't done all we wanted to. We haven't even done half of what we planned but we have learnt so much and become so much closer wiether because of the diversity we have faced or dispite  of it im not to sure.  All I am sure is that our relationship is growing and we make sure we are on the same page as to where we want to go. So maybe by this time next year we will of done more of the things we planned and then if we don't it still wont be the end of the world. As long as we are still working together I know one day we will get them all done. 

Comments (1)

	1. 14-10-2008 17:59
	Thank you Gday Tigersgirl,    I have been a member of this site for awhile now & have been reading what people are experiencing & learning on their journeys of life, love & being in a Poly relationship/family or looking to be in a poly family.     I have kept to myself as I'm as nervous as hell on these computer thingies, hehehe. I havent really written in the forums & havent contacted anyone, thankfully someone contacted me & we have started messaging each other, which has started to bring me out of my cocoon a bit.    The BIG Thank You is for the honesty in which you wrote about your poly family & your experiences & lessons reguarding the year leading up to your anniversary in this blog.     I have never been in a poly family & so, as much as I have been learning about poly family dynamics & what that means to me & mine, it is all theory & no experience.     It was with gratitude that as I was reading your blog & realised some of the emotional upheavals that you went through & are probably still going through (as I have learned in the last 4 yrs that our emotional & mental journeys are life long & always changing), that I have/had the same rose coloured glasses on that you did & I havent even stepped up & joined in a relationship, poly or otherwise. Though it is something I would dearly love to do. If I could stop being a chicken & actually do something about it. Lol    I hope when I do get the chance to have my poly family that I am as Open & honest in my understanding of mine, my childs & my partners emotional & mental needs as you were.    Thank you again & be proud of what you have accomplished on your journey son far.     Take care of yourself & your family  Dannhii    P.S. If there are any spelling mistakes in this comment, pretend there arent, which might not help you but it would help me tremendously, hehehe. Registered Report

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